Aand I disappeared for a few more days again-- homework, biggish assignment due on Thursday night. Not enough time to squeeze anything else in, in all that writing... Always so sporadic, even after specifically setting out not to be... I'm a joke... Just accept that and move on... Having a deadline like that really was, good for me, and, it was nice... Started on it early, really intending to get it in before the last minute. And yet the last minute is when I got it in; the paper was due by 11:59 PM, and I got it in at 11:58 PM... which says way too much about me...
Let's talk about rape.
Big dramatic thing, where even the closet is secret... I think Finn has AIDS (not sure if he's still black, though.) I think he was forced into some not-very-savory things when younger, and now is a total psychosexual wreck because of it. Or, well, that's not the only reason...
Finn himself continues to get raped, like, what, three times a week, or more? Granted, this is stuff he's actually okay with this time-- and I think mayhap it's because this is how he thinks normal relationships work. Holy crap this is dark stuff. It's alright, it's alright, it's not like any of this stuff is discussed so explicitly in the book(s?)... Just getting into my character's head more... deep, deep in there. But dang. Anyway.
Dang.
The only intimacy he ever gets can all be avoided-- technically. Had kind of played it for laughs till this point, oh of course Finn doesn't want to "escape" from this "danger" supernatural or no-- but let's get down to it. In abusive relationships, the abuser (here, rapist) has certain tricks up his or her sleeve to stay in power. Tactics that overpower you mentally, belittle you, make you seem helpless. Helpless without them in your life, at least, whatever hope that may be.
Finn and God
Finn is capable of getting out of any situation-- but in this case, I'm not sure if he thinks that's so. HE enjoys it and everything, and supernatural ladies can't "catch" normal human STDs (and thus, maybe, the idea that he may have AIDS, and thus the idea that a supernatural lady would be one of the few naturally "safe" in this relationship.) I'm not sure how religious Finn is (there's magic in his world, I mean, come on)-- if he were, would he feel guilty about all the fornication he's doing? I think he needs to believe that he doesn't have a choice. It creates strain in other areas (like, he keeps on tossing himself into danger; does he fully believe he can get out unscathed?) but in matters of faith, religion and his connection to God-- what, is damnation one of those supernatural problems he thinks he can avoid, giving himself permission to libertine it up?
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